Showing posts with label Journey. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Journey. Show all posts

Wednesday

THE PATH I FOLLOW


[Photo Source: Wednesday, 22 Dec 2010, My photo, my camera, Lincoln, California. dht]

Barriers, Signposts, Clouds
Our pathways are fraught with barriers that hinder our progress, signposts that fool us with misdirection, and muddled thoughts that cloud our footsteps.
[Dorothy Hazel Tarr]



THE PATH I FOLLOW

Over the hill and around the bend lies the path I did not take.  Circumstance, chance, and choice were the guideposts and sources of misdirection to the path I did follow.

So many of Life's experiences and memories are dependent upon the path taken.  What at one time seems of primary interest and concern, can take on a completely different significance later in Life.

The ROAD OF LIFE can be full of great hardship, grief, loss, health issues and financial difficulties for anyone -- No matter which Path is taken.  No matter the choices.  No matter the fates.

What matters the Path?  What matters the Road?  For -- The destination is the same no matter the route -- death!  Life, after all then, is about the Journey!

[Dorothy Hazel Tarr]



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Robert Lee Frost (born 26 Mar 1874 San Francisco, CA – death 29 Jan 1963 age Boston, Massachusetts, 89) was an American poet.  He died in Boston, on January 29, 1963, of complications from prostate surgery and is buried at the Old Bennington Cemetery in Bennington, Vermont.  His epitaph quotes a line from one of his poems: "I had a lover's quarrel with the world."  He is highly regarded for his realistic depictions of rural life and his command of American colloquial speech.  His work frequently employed settings from rural life in New England in the early twentieth century, using them to examine complex social and philosophical themes.  One of the most popular and critically respected American poets of his generation, Frost was honored frequently during his lifetime, receiving four Pulitzer Prizes for Poetry of original verse by an American author — 1924: "New Hampshire: A Poem with Notes and Grace Notes; 1931: "Collected Poems"; 1937: "A Further Range"; and 1943: "A Witness Tree".

In 1915, Robert Frost bought a farm in Franconia, New Hampshire, where he launched a career of writing, teaching, and lecturing.  This family homestead served as the Frosts' summer home until 1938.  It is maintained today as The Frost Place, a museum and poetry conference site.  During the years 1916–20, 1923–24, and 1927–1938, Frost taught English at Amherst College in Massachusetts, notably encouraging his students to account for the myriad sounds and intonations of the spoken English language in their writing.  The main library of Amherst College was named after him.  He called his colloquial approach to language "the sound of sense."  [NOTE: Amherst College in Massachusetts played an important role in the lives of Emily Elizabeth Dickinson and her immediate family.  I mention Emily, for she is my DNA Cousin and we are both direct descendants of the same great grandfather ENSIGN Moses Payne Esquire (1581-1643).] 

Robert Frost's Personal life

Robert Frost's personal life was plagued with grief and loss.  In 1885 when Frost was 11, his father died of tuberculosis, leaving the family with just eight dollars.  Frost's mother died of cancer in 1900.  In 1920, Frost had to commit his younger sister Jeanie to a mental hospital, where she died nine years later.  Mental illness apparently ran in Frost's family, as both he and his mother suffered from depression, and his daughter Irma was committed to a mental hospital in 1947.  Frost's wife, Elinor, also experienced bouts of depression.

Elinor and Robert Frost had six children: son Elliot (1896–1904, died of cholera); daughter Lesley Frost Ballantine (1899–1983); son Carol (1902–1940, committed suicide); daughter Irma (1903–1967); daughter Marjorie (1905–1934, died as a result of puerperal fever after childbirth); and daughter Elinor Bettina (died just three days after her birth in 1907).  Only Lesley and Irma outlived their father.  Frost's wife, who had heart problems throughout her life, developed breast cancer in 1937, and died of heart failure in 1938.


The Road Not Taken
(A poem by Robert Frost, published in 1916 in the collection Mountain Interval.)

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
 


SOURCE LINKS
 
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Road_Not_Taken
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Road_Not_Taken_(poem)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pulitzer_Prize_for_Poetry
http://www.sparknotes.com/poetry/frost/section7.rhtml
 

Audio and Youtube link below:
http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15717
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=goc3f77bcXk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZzUm0wqhE7E


About Robert Frost below:
http://www.poets.org/poet.php/prmPID/192
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_Frost


Monday

LOSS – A Sure Thing

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So many things one encounters in LIFE'S JOURNEY are chancy.  I've heard it said that the only things 'for sure' are death and taxes.  Well, I've another that could be added to that list of 'for sures' – LOSS. 

Below is a short prose that I found on the internet by an unknown author.  It says in so many words how one can misplace the value of something, albeit -- grandparents, parents, spouse, children, friends, pets, health, wealth, youth, beauty, eye sight, hearing, limbs , mobility, independence, freedom, faith, trust, love -- the list is endless.

What would YOU put on YOUR LIST?

Submitted by:  Dorothy Hazel Tarr






To realize
The value of a sister / brother --
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years --  
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years --  
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year --  
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months --  
Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.

To realize
The value of one month --  
Ask a mother
Who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week --  
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one minute --  
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one second --  
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.

To realize
The value of a friend or family member --  
LOSE ONE.

Time waits for no one --
Treasure every moment you have.

You will treasure it even more when --
You can share it with someone special.

Remember....
Hold on tight to the ones you love as long as you can! 



Below are just some closing thoughts – just some one-liners really – make of them what you will!

The JOURNEY ahead is shorter with each passing MOMENT! 

ONE day – all too soon, it will only be a treasured memory!

Love conquers all and overcomes all obstacles.  Or, so some would have you believe.

Gains and loss are part of MOTHER NATURE's grand design. 

When I plant seeds in my garden, I gain a bountiful harvest.  The seed is lost, when the plant grows.  The bounty is lost, when the harvest is gathered.

My childhood dreams were lost, when I realized adolescence.

My dreams of a family are lost, when I got divorced.

My dreams of being a grandparent were lost, when my daughter "sided" with my ex-spouse.

I hope I live long enough to LOVE again.

You are still in my life --  NO, NOT REALLY!

You are out of my life --  NO, NOT YET!

The art of losing is not hard to master -- I practice my "art" each day.

The stages of loss and recovery overlap, but each stage is necessary and a natural part of the healing process.  BUT, I have been in the "healing process" for years!!

I sit in a corner of my mind and cry until I am numb thinking how much I have missed.

I will know when I am ready to move on with my life -- when I accept that life without you is possible.

The only difference in my recovery from one loss or another loss, is the time it takes for me to heal and the depth of pain I feel from the loss.

My healing has a beginning, middle, and maybe an end.  However, the middle is overwhelming me these past many years!

Daily I ask myself, "Am I strong enough to bear the loss of your love?"  The answer is, "Well, you made 'til morning, again!"

There was nothing to do when I lost your love, just accept it and hurt—for years!  Will the hurt never end?!

Some say misery loves company, and mutual suffering eases the pain.  However, friends and family do not have the patience to extend support and encouragement when my JOURNEY of healing has taken over 40 years!

Will I ever love again?  Will love ever find me again?  Will I ever feel "good" again?

The good part of my pain is that it is proof that I am still alive and am surviving.

My loss of love frightens me and feels like a bottomless pit of hopelessness.

I try to run away from the feelings of hurt, desolation, and isolation, but I cannot bury them deep enough, for they emerge with the FIRST Country-and-Western song I hear.

I punish myself with the "if only's".

I cannot forget that I LOVE YOU!

I cannot forget that YOU NO LONGER LOVE ME (if you ever did).

The greater the loss, the more time it takes to heal.  My loss was over 40 years ago, and I am still testing the healing timeline "rule".

My healing these past 40 years since the loss of your love, has been full of ups and downs, leaps forward in the healing, and huge depressing backslides into despair.

The memories of loving you are painful and destructive to my peace of mind.

Before I can progress through this "healing", I have to first get "out of love" with you, which will NOT happen in my lifetime!

I place my hands on my heart and abdomen when they are in turmoil and just try to take deep breaths in slowly and exhale fully.

I take lots of naps and rest a lot, for I cannot sleep because of my dreams of you.

My research into my Family Origins and History help me maintain a sense of structure and order, and give me a feeling of being "connected" again.

I work until late at night on my genealogy on ANCESTRY, until I am exhausted and tired enough to fall asleep and hope I find my dreams are NOT NIGHTMARES!

My plan NOW is to "get over you"; tomorrow I will survive and "move on".

Nothing was as important to me as you were, although at the time I remember thinking that I had so many other important things to accomplish and get done.

GOD let me lean on you until I can stand alone, PLEASE!

I place my hands over my heart when it "hurts", and say to myself, "I am here for you.  I love you."

All the goodness of my life is gone, first you and our daughter, then joy, freedom, and security -- I live in the shadows still.

Holidays are the worst sort of torture without you and our daughter and grandchildren.

These feelings of separateness and isolation will pass, and I WILL get better -- Won't I?

My garden is full of color and blooms, but it is also full of weeds and thorns, and insects.

Before I can experience the happiness of healing, I have to traverse the pathways of pain of separation, rejection, loss of love, and divorce.

My future offers the temptations of rediscovering life, friends, self, and maybe a new LOVE.

I am tempted and want to "skip" the mourning and grieving process, but I know that the only way to recovery is to go "through" each stage of the healing process.  However, 40 years is a long time!  If I do not go "through" the process completely, I know the pain and grief can return later.  Still, 40 years is a long time!

Grief has been "quiet" for a time and I thought it was "done"; NOW, it has returned years later to destroy and threaten my life.

As I look NOW at my hurts and loss, I wonder whether my current situation has reactivated any prior and unhealed losses, and whether old wounds have been reopened that never fully healed.

 [dht]

Friday

THE MASK

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17 Feb 2012 -- Our Path through Life weaves through a maze of daily challenges, sorrows, disappointments, pain, suffering; and if fate allows, some LOVE and JOY and LAUGHTER.  The remainder of Life's Journey is a mystery – an adventure to unfold moment by moment – in a woven tapestry. 

IS IT wise to let circumstance play its tune -- without spending energy to battle outcomes that may never eventuate (some call this the "Worry - Wart Syndrome")? 

IS IT wise to waste your life changing or organizing events that cannot be altered from your efforts (some call this the "Serenity Prayer")? 

IS IT wise to put on a 'brave face', a 'smiley face', a 'false face', a MASK – in order that one may be accepted by others?

So many questions – so many answers – so many perspectives! 

WHAT MASK will I wear today?  To be accepted!  Loved!  Forgiven!  Penitent!  Remembered!  Cherished!  Employed!  Promoted!  Successful!  Saved!  Released!  Imprisoned!

WHO will see my MASK?
WHO will see that I'm even wearing a MASK?
WHO will see behind my MASK?
WHO will even be looking?
(Dorothy Hazel Tarr)

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SOURCE LINK—


(God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.  ~ "Serenity Prayer", by Reinhold Niebuhr, American theologian and commentator, 1892-1971)


(JUST A NOTE — WHERE does ONE find the COURAGE to move on – beyond what can be seen?.  ~dht)


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We CAN'T control the impressions others form about us, and THE EFFORT TO DO SO only debases our character.  [~Epictetus]

(JUST A NOTE—I do not think that this Greek slave Epictetus used these exact words!  DO YOU?  The words used in this phrase "CAN'T" and "THE EFFORT TO DO SO" seem too colloquial.  Nevertheless, the idea as recorded by Epictetus's pupil Arrian, may cause one to PAUSE and PONDER.  ~dht)

SOURCE LINK—

Epictetus (Greek: Ἐπίκτητος; AD 55 – AD 135) was a Greek sage and Stoic philosopher.  He was born a slave at Hierapolis, Phrygia (present day Pamukkale, Turkey), and lived in Rome until banishment when he went to Nicopolis in northwestern Greece where he lived the rest of his life.  His teachings were noted down and published by his pupil Arrian in his Discourses.  Philosophy, he taught, is a way of life and not just a theoretical discipline.  To Epictetus, all external events are determined by fate, and are thus beyond our control, but we can accept whatever happens calmly and dispassionately.  Individuals, however, are responsible for their own actions, which they can examine and control through rigorous self-discipline.  Suffering arises from trying to control what is uncontrollable, or from neglecting what is within our power.  As part of the universal city that is the universe, human beings have a duty to care for all fellow humans.  The person who followed these precepts would achieve happiness and peace of mind.

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Thursday

WINDS OF TIME

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(26 Jan 2012 --   So many decisions, choices, and options -- challenge every waking moment.  Each has a consequence that only Time will Tell.  Where would I BE, if another choice were made at any juncture?  Would this moment even BE for me, if another choice were elected?  What color my Path?  What reality my consequence?  dht)


Where ever will the Winds of Time may blow.
One's Path is uncertain and without governance.
Our reality a Dream of delights, and disordered nightmares.
Each step along the Path proffers a moment of decision.
Each juncture -- cause for pause and reflection.
Where both obstacles and bridges are to be crossed.
Our Faith the nave source whence strength radiates.
Where mirth and consequence converge.
Where frankincense and myrrh embalm the Spirit.
Each moment is a step in the road toward our Journey's End.
[Dorothy Hazel Tarr]

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 "To finish the moment, to find the journey's end in every step of the road, to live the greatest number of good hours, is wisdom.  It is not the part of men, but of fanatics, or of mathematicians, if you will, to say, that, the shortness of life considered, it is not worth caring whether for so short a duration we were sprawling in want, or sitting high.  Since our office is with moments, let us husband them." [Ralph Waldo Emerson}


"What's past and what's to come is strewed with husks
And formless ruin of oblivion;
But in this extant moment, faith and truth,
Strained purely from all hollow bias-drawing,
Bids thee, with most divine integrity,
From heart of very heart, great Hector, welcome!
"
 [William Shakespeare (1564-1616), British dramatist, poet.  Agamemnon, in Troilus and Cressida, act 4, sc. 5, l. 166-71.  Greeting Hector]


And  entering the house, they found the child with Mary his mother, and falling down they worshipped him.  And opening their treasures they offered him gifts of gold, and frankincense, and myrrh" (The Holy Bible, The Catholic Press, Chicago, Illinois, 1958 – The New Testament, Matthew 2:11).

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Sunday

The Path Behind

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(23 OCT 2011 - Who is to say how long the Journey?  How long the Heartache?  How long the grieving?  Who can say – when it's done?  There is but ONE LIFE, but many ROADS and many TEARS to pave a Path!  Never again to relive those precious moments Past – Yet Never really living the Present!  Forevermore living on the sidelines and shadows! ~dht-2011)


The Past is so hard to release – 
at times, it is the only Reality –
the only Companion.


There is only the Past –
there is Nothing to take its place –
in the Here, Now, or Future.


The Path ahead holds no interest –
holds no variation –
holds no Hope.


Tis a never ending struggle –
putting one foot in front of the other –
getting through the daily serving –
of Heartache and Despair.


My daily walk -- Footsore –
with wounded Heart --
with eyes continually looking –
at The Path Behind.

[Dorothy Hazel Tarr - 2011]