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Wednesday

In Love's Own Time


"Lady in a Garden" by Frederic Leighton





(7 NOV 2012 – LOVE is not taught, not learned, not earned, not bought, and not owned!  LOVE can prolong life or bring it to an abrupt end!  LOVE can be a guiding light – a beacon in the shadows of Life's shoals.  The ebb and flow of LOVE's tide is as a mist without substance and without constancy.  LOVE's loss is felt for a lifetime -- its scars never fully healed.  Dorothy Hazel Tarr)

  
LOVE comes to a precious few!
It may arrive softly as a whisper or as loud as a Heartbeat.
Love can sweep you off your feet as its wave of emotions break over the shores of your Heart.
It may retreat with the turn of events and circumstance, even as the tide retreats from the shore.
Tangled barriers scarred over by tears and years can hinder or prevent Love's triumphant return!
The wounds of Love Lost cannot be healed in Time's Mortality!
For some Love comes only once!
For some Love comes not again!
For some Love never finds its way!
By: Dorothy Hazel Tarr

 
"The Awakening of Spring" by Csok Istvan, 1900
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Below is a poem written by my maternal cousin Emily Elizabeth Dickinson.  Emily never married during her life – but she did have the Love of Family and Friends.  She experienced much from loss and grief, and felt the scars of pain and illness.
 
 
"Morning Sun" by Harold Knight
Each Scar I'll keep for Him
Instead I'll say of Gem
In His long Absence worn
A Costlier one
 
But every Tear I bore
Were He to count o'er
His own would fall so more
I'll mis sum them.
 
Poem #877 by Emily Elizabeth Dickinson, written about age 34, an American poet, born in Amherst, Massachusetts (born December 10, 1830 – died May 15, 1886).

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Below is a short story – a tale of LOVE that blossomed in youth and flowered in TIME.  I found the story on the Internet – its author is unknown to me and seems to have been written over 40 years ago.  It touched the tender places in my Heart – I hope it touches yours!

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“The Letter --  The Lost Wallet”
 
"A City Park" by William Merritt Chase
As I walked home one freezing day, I stumbled on a wallet someone had lost in the street.  I picked it up and looked inside to find some identification so I could call the owner.  But the wallet contained only three dollars and a crumpled letter that looked as if it had been in there for years.
 
The envelope was worn and the only thing that was legible on it was the return address.
 
I started to open the letter, hoping to find some clue.  Then I saw the dateline–1924.  The letter had been written almost sixty years ago.  It was written in a beautiful feminine handwriting on powder blue stationery with a little flower in the left-hand corner.  It was a “Dear John” letter that told the recipient, whose name appeared to be Michael, that the writer could not see him anymore because her mother forbade it.  Even so, she wrote that she would always love him.
 
It was signed, Hannah.
 
It was a beautiful letter, but there was no way except for the name Michael, that the owner could be identified.  Maybe if I called information, the operator could find a phone listing for the address on the envelope.
 
Operator,” I began, “this is an unusual request.  I’m trying to find the owner of a wallet that I found.  Is there any way you can tell me if there is a phone number for an address that was on an envelope in the wallet?”  She suggested I speak with her supervisor, who hesitated for a moment then said, “Well, there is a phone listing at that address, but I can’t give you the number.”  She said, as a courtesy, she would call that number, explain my story and would ask them if they wanted her to connect me.  I waited a few minutes and then she was back on the line.  “I have a party who will speak with you.”
 
I asked the woman on the other end of the line if she knew anyone by the name of Hannah.
 
She gasped, “Oh!  We bought this house from a family who had a daughter named Hannah.  But that was 30 years ago!”
 
“Would you know where that family could be located now?”  I asked.
 
“I remember that Hannah had to place her mother in a nursing home some years ago,” the woman said.  “Maybe if you got in touch with them they might be able to track down the daughter.”
 
She gave me the name of the nursing home and I called the number.  They told me the old lady had passed away some years ago but they did have a phone number for where they thought the daughter might be living.
 
I thanked them and phoned.  The woman who answered explained that Hannah herself was now living in a nursing home.
 
This whole thing was stupid, I thought to myself.  Why was I making such a big deal over finding the owner of a wallet that had only three dollars and a letter that was almost 60 years old?
 
Nevertheless, I called the nursing home in which Hannah was supposed to be living and the man who answered the phone told me, “Yes, Hannah is staying with us.”
 
Even though it was already 10 p.m., I asked if I could come by to see her.  “Well,” he said hesitatingly, “if you want to take a chance, she might be in the day room watching television.”
 
I thanked him and drove over to the nursing home.  The night nurse and a guard greeted me at the door.  We went up to the third floor of the large building.  In the day room, the nurse introduced me to Hannah.
 
She was a sweet, silver-haired old timer with a warm smile and a twinkle in her eye.
 
I told her about finding the wallet and showed her the letter.  The second she saw the powder blue envelope with that little flower on the left, she took a deep breath and said, “Young man, this letter was the last contact I ever had with Michael.”
 
"Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder"
by Marcus Stone
She looked away for a moment deep in thought and then said softly, “I loved him very much.  But I was only 16 at the time and my mother felt I was too young.  Oh, he was so handsome.  He looked like Sean Connery, the actor.”
 
“Yes,” she continued.  “Michael Goldstein was a wonderful person.  If you should find him, tell him I think of him often.  And,” she hesitated for a moment, almost biting her lip, “tell him I still love him.  You know,” she said smiling as tears began to well up in her eyes, “I never did marry.  I guess no one ever matched up to Michael…”
 
I thanked Hannah and said goodbye.  I took the elevator to the first floor and as I stood by the door, the guard there asked, “Was the old lady able to help you?”
 
I told him she had given me a lead.  “At least I have a last name.  But I think I’ll let it go for a while.  I spent almost the whole day trying to find the owner of this wallet.”
 
I had taken out the wallet, which was a simple brown leather case with red lacing on the side.  When the guard saw it, he said, “Hey, wait a minute!  That’s Mr. Goldstein’s wallet.  I’d know it anywhere with that bright red lacing.  He’s always losing that wallet.  I must have found it in the halls at least three times.”
 
“Who’s Mr. Goldstein?”  I asked as my hand began to shake.
 
“He’s one of the old timers on the 8th floor.  That’s Mike Goldstein’s wallet for sure.  He must have lost it on one of his walks.”
 
I thanked the guard and quickly ran back to the nurse’s office.  I told her what the guard had said.  We went back to the elevator and got on.  I prayed that Mr. Goldstein would be up.
 
On the eighth floor, the floor nurse said, “I think he’s still in the day room.  He likes to read at night.  He’s a darling old man.”
 
"A Contemplative Moment"
by Stephen Lewin
We went to the only room that had any lights on and there was a man reading a book.  The nurse went over to him and asked if he had lost his wallet.  Mr. Goldstein looked up with surprise, put his hand in his back pocket and said, “Oh, it is missing!”
 
“This kind gentleman found a wallet and we wondered if it could be yours?”
 
I handed Mr. Goldstein the wallet and the second he saw it, he smiled with relief and said, “Yes, that’s it!  It must have dropped out of my pocket this afternoon.  I want to give you a reward.”
 
“No, thank you,” I said.  “But I have to tell you something.  I read the letter in the hope of finding out who owned the wallet.”
 
The smile on his face suddenly disappeared.  “You read that letter?”
 
“Not only did I read it, I think I know where Hannah is.”
 
He suddenly grew pale.  “Hannah?  You know where she is?  How is she?  Is she still as pretty as she was?  Please, please tell me,” he begged.
 
“She’s fine…just as pretty as when you knew her.”  I said softly.
 
The old man smiled with anticipation and asked, “Could you tell me where she is?  I want to call her tomorrow.”  He grabbed my hand and said, “You know something, mister, I was so in love with that girl that when that letter came, my life literally ended.  I never married.  I guess I’ve always loved her. 
 
“Mr. Goldstein,” I said, “Come with me.”
 
We took the elevator down to the third floor.  The hallways were darkened and only one or two little night-lights lit our way to the day room where Hannah was sitting alone watching the television.  The nurse walked over to her.  “Hannah,” she said softly, pointing to Michael, who was waiting with me in the doorway.  “Do you know this man?”
 
She adjusted her glasses, looked for a moment, but didn’t say a word.  Michael said softly, almost in a whisper, “Hannah, it’s Michael.  Do you remember me?”
 
She gasped, “Michael!  I don’t believe it!  Michael!  It’s you!  My Michael!”  He walked slowly towards her and they embraced.  The nurse and I left with tears streaming down our faces.
 
“See,” I said.  “See how the Good Lord works!  If it’s meant to be, it will be.”
 
About three weeks later I got a call at my office from the nursing home.  “Can you break away on Sunday to attend a wedding?  Michael and Hannah are going to tie the knot!”
 
It was a beautiful wedding with all the people at the nursing home dressed up to join in the celebration.  Hannah wore a light beige dress and looked beautiful.  Michael wore a dark blue suit and stood tall.  They made me their best man.
 
The hospital gave them their own room and if you ever wanted to see a 76-year-old bride and a 79-year-old groom acting like two teenagers, you had to see this couple.
 
A perfect ending for a love affair that had lasted nearly 60 years.
 
- Anonymous
 
 
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Tuesday

A Touch Beyond


[Photo source: Google internet image]
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(23 Oct 2012 -- When does it ever get easier to say farewell to those who have touched your Heart?  To walk without them by your side?  To 'move on' without them in your reality?  To sleep without them in your dreams?  To 'go on' to your Tomorrow?  ~dht)

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[Photo source: Google internet image "leafy kiss"]

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OH !   First Love!
 
So hard to believe this Love is real -
And found its way to the door of your Heart.
 
Your tears care for it in times of trial –
Your joy cheers for it when happiness overflows.
 
Your Heart remains captive to Love's embrace -
Even after sad farewells and beyond touch.
 
~Dorothy Hazel Tarr 

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Sunday

LOVE'S OWN DREAM

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(5 Feb 2012  --  There is a song in my head and a melody in my heart – the verse forgotten by my Lover and unsung.  Wherever I wander, whenever I lay in slumber, the memories follow as familiar companions.  As the old patterns in my life are retraced, I relive anew those precious times with my LOVE.  They are all that I hold dear and are more precious and treasured than ever.  The past is gone, and while the loss has been devastating, there is nothing that can be done to really regain what is lost.  While I do not want to let go of my treasured memories, choosing to live in my past will never completely assuage my loss, nor completely erase the pain I feel now and the void in my life.  Day – by – day, I walk through my life retracing the worn, rocky, and difficult pathways of my memories, reliving times long gone, but made afresh from daily visits.  Ever faithful to my memories, I tend them with special care deserved of heartfelt treasures dreams in hues of LOVE.  dht)



The sweet words of LOVE –
but a melody in my memory.

LOVE stayed but for a while –
then took flight on the wings of Time.

The bonds that would stay LOVE –  
faltered and frayed.

LOVE's voice is silent –
the story untold.

Whispered words of LOVE only a memory –
on a sea of tears.

The current of my tears –
drown my heart in the swollen waters of grief.

My salty lips have lost their smile --
my achy heart has lost its joy.

Dreams of LOVE stalk my nights –
then follow a carved path through my days.

A bond set by a prayer –
later severed by a gavel.

There is no LOVE in your eyes –
no comfort in your arms.

Through the passage of the years –
LOVE's dream follows in lonely corridors.

The tears taste bittersweet –
in my wanderer's loveless sojourn.

As I lay, I wonder --
while I watch the magic of LOVE's dream play out – again.

Time's forgetfulness awaits the dreamer –
where my lover's face shines with tenderness and comfort.

My walk is solo at the end –
without LOVE's candle, warmth, or flame.

The day grows cold and I grow old –
with only dream shadows to follow.

LOVE's remembered moments –
will not be swept away by Nature's taps.

A single note of LOVE's melody –
plays on in my Heart's embrace.

It is so much easier to LOVE the melody –
than to LOVE the withered leafless vine.

Your melody played on after I was gone –
but to another's tune.

To my heart you are no stranger –
to my LOVE you are no captive.

LOVE words spoken at an alter –
now lost on a sea of tears.

Names written on a vowel –
erased by legalese.

The melody from our LOVE song –
a forgotten verse unsung.

My final rest will not be alongside you –
your name not chiseled on my headstone.

LOVE's tendrils shroud my heart –
LOVE's ashes my monument.

LOVE's absence leaves my life raw and unfinished –
albeit the end is nearer.

All my windows and doors are open –
all my LOVE a memory.

JUST LOVE'S OWN DREAM.

[Dorothy Hazel Tarr]